The fears that I have fought for many years is the fear of being enough. This was caused from childhood trauma that I experienced as a child. My grandparents took me in at the age of three. By the time they had gotten me, I was already showing signs of neglect and abuse.
I grew up thinking I was never good enough because my mom left me with my grandparents and took my little sister. As a child, you don’t understand why adults do the things they do.
I have always been one who wrote in a journal about events that happened in my life. I have learned techniques that has helped me self cope as an adult, and has healed my inner child.
I have experienced many things in my life, and decided to start my website to help those who are seeking help. Therapy is expensive, and trying new techniques to help your well being… why not? I hope I can continue reaching those who need guidance on healing and wellness.
Family time. As I grow older, family means more and more to me. Watching our kids grow and being able to come and go more freely. My youngest is 16, and we are in the early stages of becoming an empty nest. I enjoy the rest, I so longed for when my kids were growing up. Those sleepless nights with toddlers, or those busy times when following your kids for traveling sports.
I believe a lot of those days were me becoming a total zombie. However, it does get better. I do miss those stages of your kids, but watching them in adulthood is a new milestone. Watching your kids thrive in their life brings the “priceless” joys in life.
As I said before, I am a creature of habit. In my routine, I try to give myself at least 3 good rest days. Reason for this, is because I live with an autoimmune disease, and it takes my body longer to recover than a healthy body. Never judge a book by its cover because I may look healthy, I am one who is fighting pain relief every minute of the day.
My rest day starts on Friday, but my weekend doesn’t start until Saturday. Since my kids were little “Friday night movie night” are still a thing even though Im a pre-empty nester. My 16 year old is out of town until tomorrow, and it is just my husband and my dog who are here.
Today I was able to catch up on sleep that I didn’t get during the week. Have coffee and just relaxed. Tomorrow will start another routine of obedience by going to church. After church, I continue resting until Monday rolls around and my weekly routine cycle starts over!
I’m a big believer of faith, and trying to be an obedient Christian. You can say, I’m a work in progress. However, I can look back at my life, and see how God protected me even though I was being neglected as a child. He even protected me at my worst time in life, when I was at rock bottom and asked for forgiveness. He has been there when I was a single mom, and when I was fighting health issues. My faith continues to grow by seeing the progress that I have made in my life. Becoming more obedient at church, as I would at work or my fitness time. God is good all the time.