I have been in survival mode since the age of 3. My step dad in the early 80s, really didn’t like the fact of raising another man’s kid. Especially a Hispanic kid. I was taken at the age of 4, by my maternal grandparents after being told by a pediatrician that I had the signs of neglect and abused.Thank you for reading this post, don't forget to subscribe!
My trauma started early, like most of us now days. I never understood why I was raised by my grandparents without the presence of my mother. I noticed she and her new husband had my sister and would take them every where. They would leave me at the baby sitters. I grew up with the feeling of not wanted. Which honestly led to my mindset, and my worth. I allowed men to take advantage of me, just because I wanted to be wanted. I allowed this happen for decades, which lead to me being a single mom of two kid with different dads.
I know what your thinking, and believe me I have heard it from my grandpa himself. I’m damaged goods, or better yet… a whore. I had my youngest at the age of 27, and I have been raising them as a single mom until 2019. I knew in my mind that I did not want my kids to experience the pain I went through, so I sacrificed a lot to give them the stability and the love that I never felt from my mom.
As a mom…. What you do or how you treat your kids, matters. When you yell at your kids every morning, your wiring their brain. This will only cause them future anxiety problems. I know, because I have been fighting adult anxiety for many years now.
I have learned certain ways of healing myself by researching and listening to podcast that will inspire and help you through your journey. Is it easy? No, way! It’s a journey like anything else. However, do see progress on my mindset? Absolutely, I’m better than I was yesterday.
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